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Photo Diary - Towson, MD @Towson Center Arena. Photos By: Adam Elmakias.
Music Video: Pierce The Veil - Bulls In The Bronx
Derek Sanders (Mayday Parade) Spring Fever Tour Towson 4/28/13
All I want is to be happy. Truly happy,which I haven’t been in a VERY long time. Over the last year/year in a half I’ve been depressed,numb,not really interested in anything. I’ve pretty much learned how to fake being happy for work just to make it through without a hundred questions. I thought getting my license and a car would help things out especially with work and the drama that was going on there and it kind of has but its brought on a new level of anxiety. I’ve had a few mini break downs at work and any social situations gives me the worse anxiety. In fact I had an anxiety attack at the Summer Set show last month which made the night suck. An I’m afraid it might happen again this Sunday in Philly for the All Time Low,Pierce The Veil,Mayday Parade,and You Me At Six show. And there’s nothing I can do about it. I really wanted to get a photo pass because that would have helped but I wasn’t lucky enough to get one. I just hope somehow I make it through…
I’ve lost the focus I need to get things done and updated. I started another tumblr for just my music related photos and “show reviews” but its really behind like a year or so behind. I also started a Like FB page for my photos but the photos aren’t watermarked so my brains all over the place if I want to re-do it or leave it and just mark future photos…
Which does reminds me that I went to see P!nk in March and that was maybe the only time I felt okay.
I went from being super excited about The Spring Fever tour to not so much. Who has something against me that doesn’t want me to EVER have a pass for Mayday Parade or Pierce The Veil.?
This went from a dream tour to an anxiety driven nightmare.